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I'm Deborah. I'm a writer, currently seeking representation/publication for my YA Fantasy Fractured Princess

I love to play Final Fantasy games and Shattered Pixel Dungeon. I also enjoy the many ins and outs of music (I'm a chorus geek).

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

IWSG: In Need of A Good Day

Happy Wednesday, and Happy September!

As you may know by now, this is the Insecure Writer's Support Group, created by the awesome ninja Alex J. Cavanaugh. You can visit him and also sign on at the group's very own website, Insecure Writer's Support Group dot com. And a big thank you to the ninjas who are visiting us all, as we are in the HUNDREDS.

I'm writing this the night before so I can get it out and read other people's posts today, and while also hoping Wednesday is a better day than Tuesday. First but not first-first. I didn't make the Pitch Wars list. It's a surreal movie feeling as you hear the mentors you picked pick other people and you're counting down thinking, "Okay, four more...Three more...Two..." By the 4th mentor, I'd pretty much lost hope because they had moved onto the mentors who were looking for YA OR NA, but now I guess I'm in that phase of total depression before I pick up my things and keep moving. The least I can hope for is that I'll get feedback in 2 to 4 weeks.

I said it was first but not first-first because by 9am Tuesday, I knew that I no longer wanted to Tuesday. I'm in a job that doesn't challenge me and that I don't want to do anymore, but I'm either over- or under- qualified for every other job out there right now, so I'm basically just sitting at my desk feeling so ADHD that I don't know what to do anymore. I'm also an insomniac, but it only seems to be on weekdays (probably because I hate my job), and by 10am, I'm ready to go to sleep and just don't want to be bothered. That certainly doesn't help.

There was a familial issue that happened actually just before the Pitch Wars video went up that upset me, too, and while I was straining to hear the first 30 minutes of the video because of noisy family members (not related to the aforementioned familial issue), I was kind of hoping just a little bit, that I would be picked. And I slightly blame myself because I said I wasn't doing anymore contests, and I probably shouldn't have because I'm not emotionally built for them in any capacity.

So anyway, here's to a good day.


  1. Here's hoping Wednesday is a good day for you! I always preschedule posts so I can visit blogs. And thank you very much for visiting mine. :)

  2. Sorry you weren't picked.
    A dead-end, no challenge job is the worst. Start planning an escape before it eats you alive.
    Hope today is much, much better!

  3. Sorry to hear about Pitch Wars. Wishing you a positive and hope-filled Wednesday!

  4. Sorry you didn't get picked. Hopefully you get some good feedback and not...well, we won't go there. Did you do it last year? I got two sets of feedback and it was within just a few days of the choices being revealed. So I'm thinking if you get any it'll probably be soon. But some mentors send just a general rejection or nothing at all. Everyone is different.
    Hopefully today is going better!

  5. ~Sorry about Pitch Wars :( But I`m a huge anime fan, so I`ll say to you : "Never give up!" For if there`s one thing anime has thought me, it`s that :) Also, you might wanna change your job, cause a job that doesn`t excite you is probably only gonna make you more depressed :/ Anyway, good luck in your future!! :D

  6. Here's wishing for a better job, more success, and most of all, happiness. Be strong.

  7. Big hugs to you. I started suffering with insomnia lately too. Not sure if it's the weather (we've had some storms during the day) or what but it's driving me nuts. Hope things turn around soon!

  8. Hopefully your Wednesday was better than your Tuesday. :-( Good luck and stay focused!

  9. I can relate to not being cut-out for contests! I can't really handle them, either. I guess that's why I typically don't bother with them. But, I really hope you start feeling better soon! I guess failure is a sign of being on the right track, since no one ever succeeded without failing many times first. ;)

    I see you are a FF fan! Are you a fan of FFVII? They are finally remaking it! I'm so shocked and excited....

    1. I am! It's not my favorite of the franchise, but I certainly love the spin-off games, and I can't wait to play the remake!


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